You guys are very kind. I am feeling better today. My headaches usually don't last four days; this one finally started lifting in the middle of the afternoon on Thursday, just in time for me to go upstairs to the union meeting to hear the latest bad news about our jobs.
(More staff cuts in the newsroom, dire news on the looming bankruptcy front, requests/demands from the company for give-backs in pay, overtime, etc.)
I love my job and I will keep doing it as long as it's around. I will not catastrophize. If they take my job away, I will find something else to do. I have had times in my life when I have had no money; I remember scrounging in the couch cushions looking for spare change so I could buy food. Good times come, bad times come, life goes on. Life doesn't care; it's without emotion. We make it what we make it.
I remain as sanguine as I can be. My neck muscles are literally sore today, from being so tense and beat up for those four days.
Good news arrives: My editor finally read the three latest chapters of "Hack," and he says I'm hitting my stride. He likes them. He has minor suggestions, but mostly he says, keep going. So that's seven chapters, maybe close to half the book. I'm a little stumped on the pacing of the next couple of chapters, but I'm eager to start writing again. He also has an idea for another book, but I don't want to hear about it until this one is done.
Too bad regional books pay worse than newspapers. The things I love to do are not very lucrative. (Why wasn't I born with a penchant for, oh, the law?)
Tonight, we'll decorate the tree. Tomorrow, we're going to a play. We'll continue Boscoe's ramp training, and we'll chase Riley around the yard. I'm glad my pleasures have always been simple (and inexpensive). I hate seeing the worry around me in the newsroom, I fear for those who might lose their jobs; I really fear for the democracy--and that is not an exaggeration--if newspapers cannot remain vibrant. Who will pay attention? Who will be the watchdog? How will anyone know anything?
We do what we can do.
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